2 years

2 years ago; I started to become much more open about having selective mutism, in hopes that the world would may become a little more accepting of it. I guess, it worked, sort of? School is more aware- although I leave in June, but has mental health services became more aware? No. I’m starting to believe that trying to overcome SM is much like playing a video game. *Can this mental health professional help you beat the level and overcome SM? Level failed- pick another mental health professional to try again!* Maybe, one day the video game will say ‘Completed level’- i mean it better do, its kind of boring now not being able to speak.

Anyway, 11/12 years ago, a 5 year old was sat in a classroom, with having the task of doing what steps was needing to achieve our dream job. At 5, I knew it wasn’t a choice (which ‘professionals’ still can’t understand) and that the chances of overcoming it would be slim, so I picked a job, which to me, seemed you didn’t have to speak in- a librarian. At 5, I hoped I was wrong, I hoped that someone would come and help me. The ‘hopes’ kind of came true, but not really. People had came and ‘attempted’ to help, but somehow I slipped through every gap available.

Awareness of Selective Mutism, needs to happen- there’s some, but not enough. Other children shouldn’t have the fear of not having a future so young.